I went back to pray at my surau malam-malam terakhirnya because dah start to feel less rushed with work.Lagipun rugi if I don't maximise the last 10 days.
Surau pun padat so the room was not so cold.Malam pertama, someone brought a baby who would cry non stop.I ni kalau solat, perlukan suasana senyap..no talking, no wailing.So there was a big struggle within as I did my teraweh and witir.Between feeling angry with the mother of the baby (berapa ramai yg akan terganggu focus solat mereka malam tu) and the understanding that the young mother wanted her lailatul qadr too (which she could get wherever she is).
Then you'd have women who love talking about donnia while on their prayer mat while waiting for Isyak.Yg ni I tak tahan betul. Rumah Allah IS rumah Allah...if in a library kita boleh senyap..why can't we in surau and masjid? Zikir ke...baca Quran ke.
Then there are those who would be so concerned over where you place your feet to ensure saf lurus. Dia nak lurus betul macam pembaris.I will need to refer to my ahli fiqh when I go back after Raya.Shoulder to shoulder should be fine..tak pyh le kata tumit tu kena letak kat mana.
Nik is so good this Ramadan.Semua dia buat.Pukul 2 am dah bangun.Wow! And after his iktikaf at the surau just before Sahur, he told me how worried he was if the family could not be together in akhirat.So we both sobbed and set a rule that there should only be one voice frm now on: his.Z was also briefed that no one could veto dad now...Subuh and Isyak must jemaah now in addition to Maghrib on working days.We have to adjust time to ensure this.
Entah berapa lama le tahannya vow tu knowing how busy we all are.Kekadang imam pun balik lewat!
Ustaz tazkirah said whtever Ramadan discipline we have, we have to continue after Ramadan or hati kembali keras..sifat malas akan kembali jika kita tak buat apa kita buat now: solat sunat, ngaji Quran, bykkan bersedekah dll.In some places, people travel by sampans in the dark of the night to listen to ceramah agama (tazkirah ustaz frm Sabah semlm..he quit his job as a lecturer to do dakwah fulltime in pendalaman Sabah di kg2 yg dah islam but no guru to teach them how to pray etc). There are still kids who eat from tong sampah.Ustaz said he grew like that till sekolah menengah but saved by Allah via wang zakat, ihsan orang that dia dapat sambung belajar till uni.SubhanaAllah..how protected our lives are..dok sibuk bagi bantuan sana sini...rakyat kita masih ramai eating from tong sampah.
Anyway, I decided to create the raya mood early this year by doing some flower arrangements using some recycled materials (botol jam and botol minuman in addition to a few vases I have around the house, often unused).
Surau pun padat so the room was not so cold.Malam pertama, someone brought a baby who would cry non stop.I ni kalau solat, perlukan suasana senyap..no talking, no wailing.So there was a big struggle within as I did my teraweh and witir.Between feeling angry with the mother of the baby (berapa ramai yg akan terganggu focus solat mereka malam tu) and the understanding that the young mother wanted her lailatul qadr too (which she could get wherever she is).
Then you'd have women who love talking about donnia while on their prayer mat while waiting for Isyak.Yg ni I tak tahan betul. Rumah Allah IS rumah Allah...if in a library kita boleh senyap..why can't we in surau and masjid? Zikir ke...baca Quran ke.
Then there are those who would be so concerned over where you place your feet to ensure saf lurus. Dia nak lurus betul macam pembaris.I will need to refer to my ahli fiqh when I go back after Raya.Shoulder to shoulder should be fine..tak pyh le kata tumit tu kena letak kat mana.
Nik is so good this Ramadan.Semua dia buat.Pukul 2 am dah bangun.Wow! And after his iktikaf at the surau just before Sahur, he told me how worried he was if the family could not be together in akhirat.So we both sobbed and set a rule that there should only be one voice frm now on: his.Z was also briefed that no one could veto dad now...Subuh and Isyak must jemaah now in addition to Maghrib on working days.We have to adjust time to ensure this.
Entah berapa lama le tahannya vow tu knowing how busy we all are.Kekadang imam pun balik lewat!
Ustaz tazkirah said whtever Ramadan discipline we have, we have to continue after Ramadan or hati kembali keras..sifat malas akan kembali jika kita tak buat apa kita buat now: solat sunat, ngaji Quran, bykkan bersedekah dll.In some places, people travel by sampans in the dark of the night to listen to ceramah agama (tazkirah ustaz frm Sabah semlm..he quit his job as a lecturer to do dakwah fulltime in pendalaman Sabah di kg2 yg dah islam but no guru to teach them how to pray etc). There are still kids who eat from tong sampah.Ustaz said he grew like that till sekolah menengah but saved by Allah via wang zakat, ihsan orang that dia dapat sambung belajar till uni.SubhanaAllah..how protected our lives are..dok sibuk bagi bantuan sana sini...rakyat kita masih ramai eating from tong sampah.
Anyway, I decided to create the raya mood early this year by doing some flower arrangements using some recycled materials (botol jam and botol minuman in addition to a few vases I have around the house, often unused).
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