Saya lari dari workshop semalam sebab dah kasi input pada organisers on Saturday (checked in to sleep over at AKEPT tapi changed my mind and checked out hari yang sama balik rumah..selepas memberitahu tuanrumah)
Hujan lebat and I had not driven so long distance like that for a long time.GPS pun hampeh.Syukurlah I made it in time for Maghrib.Kesimpulannya: percayalah kpd GPS sendiri. :)
Hari ni pun I lari from one function.Flu - very bad.Must be something I picked up from AKEPT (someone was having a flu and I shook her hand)or ulam served tak dibasuh betul (usually raw veges would give me this prob).Pagi Ahad lagi dah bergegas ke klinik and slept early. Dreamt of the palace in Sweden.Apa ke hel? Nak bermenantukan anak raja? Haha.
Mek told me rupanya masa my aruah mak was hospitalised the week she was dying she did ask Mek bila we were taking her out for the mother's day lunch I was supposed to organise.Sedihnya hati saya.Luluh!
Tak sampai 3 bulan dia tiada.Rasa macam dah lama sangat.There are days I miss her so much.Nasiblah saya ni penyabar (a-cheh konon!)saya teruskan juga kehidupan saya sebagai anak yatim piatu.But someone (orang bkn Islam commenting on MH17 masa jenazah sampai) said kita jgn ingat mereka yang tiada itu pergi terus..roh mereka ada dan kita akan berjumpa mereka kembali.Weiii..yang bercakap tu bukan Islam (psychologist).Malu! Malu!
So that is why I tak bergulung-gulung hiba cos' my mom is no longer here (how often I think of how I could have been much kinder masa dia hidup).
Hari ni pun I lari from one function.Flu - very bad.Must be something I picked up from AKEPT (someone was having a flu and I shook her hand)or ulam served tak dibasuh betul (usually raw veges would give me this prob).Pagi Ahad lagi dah bergegas ke klinik and slept early. Dreamt of the palace in Sweden.Apa ke hel? Nak bermenantukan anak raja? Haha.
Mek told me rupanya masa my aruah mak was hospitalised the week she was dying she did ask Mek bila we were taking her out for the mother's day lunch I was supposed to organise.Sedihnya hati saya.Luluh!
Tak sampai 3 bulan dia tiada.Rasa macam dah lama sangat.There are days I miss her so much.Nasiblah saya ni penyabar (a-cheh konon!)saya teruskan juga kehidupan saya sebagai anak yatim piatu.But someone (orang bkn Islam commenting on MH17 masa jenazah sampai) said kita jgn ingat mereka yang tiada itu pergi terus..roh mereka ada dan kita akan berjumpa mereka kembali.Weiii..yang bercakap tu bukan Islam (psychologist).Malu! Malu!
So that is why I tak bergulung-gulung hiba cos' my mom is no longer here (how often I think of how I could have been much kinder masa dia hidup).
4 comments:
Salam prof, usah dikenang yang lepas. Moga Allah ampunkan kita semua. We can still be kind or kinder even when they were not around us anymore. May Allah place them in the best of place :)
Ubuntu: You are right but one thing about our brain, some memories or pains are locked in the system and once in a while, they will emerge.It could be the scent of a familiar food which will trigger this memory, or an event (like raya).Kita bertuah agama kita ajar mcmana nak cope.Without that, grief can be prolonged and escalate to something more damaging.Bak kata my friend, feeling guilty is good cos' we'll pray more for forgiveness. Gamaknya betullah tu.
Kak F
saya pun selalu LARI.
rendam sayuran yang mahu dibuat ulam dengan air garam terlebih dahulu.
Mawar: haha.Kita perlu belajar meminimakan mesyuarat dan bengkel di dlm dunia digital hari ini.Pengalaman yg mengejutkan apabila melihat teman-teman menyediakan bantuan mengajar institusi pengajian tinggi mcm nak mengajar sekolah rendah.Selepas memberi sedikit pandangan, saya lari.Pengajaran sastera sepatutnya wajib buat semua!
Tip bagus utk ulam.Saya buat di rumah tetapi rasanya di kedai/restoran awam, bertuah jika mrk buat.Wallahualam.
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